Jun 152015

Tick-tock, tick-tock….

It sounds cliche – but it is so true – life goes by SO fast.  Even when we think it’s dragging on — maybe because we’re waiting on something or we’re enveloped in some monotony or tedious task……..eventually we get to those points where we look back and go “holy cow, five years in the blink on an eye!”.

I have that recurring feeling lately as I realize we’ve been in our ‘new’ house for four years now. FOUR years.

Huh? Really?

And ummmm, HOW? How is it the time has gone SO fast?????

Do you ever have these little questions pop up — like:

It’s Monday again already ?

Laundry needs done? Didn’t I just do that?

High school classes? Seems like I just sent him off to elementary school – Where did the time go?

How did she (or he) (or they) get so big?

How did I get to be “xyz” years old? (48 this summer)

Do you ever think back to the ideas you had when you were 5, or 10, or 16 or 20?

Are you where you thought you’d be?

That’s not even what I find myself wondering…what  I’m wondering lately is more like “what HAPPENED to the things I used to love?”  

I mean, I know what happened – life happened, I made choices, I had children, I poured my heart and soul into them (and still do and will and don’t even want that to change!) –  I did what I needed to do at times – for me, for my family. and I’m ok with that.

I wish I had done some things differently….that I hadn’t squandered so much of my youth…..I did some things great, some things not so great…I’ve made good choices and bad choices, and really really bad choices…..but I’m in a good place. I’m blessed and I’m thankful.

And I’m ready to revisit some of the things I’ve let go along the way. I’m ready to begin thinking and planning about the next set of choices, the next set of years that are going to go whizzing by……AND I’m SUPER excited!

I look at some of the choices I’ve made in the past year and I think – wow, this must be why people get accused of ‘mid life crisis’ — But nope, it’s not. It’s an awakening. It’s another chapter.  It’s a natural progression I think – especially when you’ve raised children. There is a lot of focus on them and then you get to this point where – ahhhh. look at that – a free afternoon….a free evening. I’m not an empty nester yet — but I’m starting to feel like there may be this really fun mix of empty nest/mid-life quasi-do-over/next chapter coming.

Tell me I’m not alone! Has anyone else gone through this? Or approaching this? Can anyone relate?  🙂

Oh and just so you know – I didn’t buy a sports car – I bought this instead
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This is “Atomic Caesium”  or Casey for short 🙂

She’s our newest addition and we are so incredibly excited to have her!

Horses are one of those things that I have loved all my life – having been blessed to own my own as a teenager into early adulthood and also to make a living with horses as a first career.

I’m so excited to revisit this and will share more as we go along!

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